Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Next Step

So, I have been in quite the slump lately. I can't log my food consistently and even then I wouldn't even want to log it because they aren't good food choices. My boyfriend, Trevor, has been helping me  try to focus more on other aspects of healthy eating. I've been trying to focus more on fats, carbs and protien. Bottom line, I just haven't been feeling sucessful and I have been struggling more than I have since I started this journey.

So, I thought about it and decided to check out Weight Watchers on line plan. After as much reasearch as I could do without signing up, I bit the bullet and decided to try it out. So far, it's not too bad. Trevor and I went to friend's wedding Sunday so my points went out the window. The scanner isn't that impressive. Lose It and My Fitness Pal have better scanners. But it's not horrible that the scanner doesn't always work, it doesn't require a lot of informtation to figure out the points.

So far it has been going ok, I'm really optimistic about it all. Trevor and I are leaving for Jamaica a week from Thursday & I know the  points will be non existant out there but  I'm gonna do my best to behave up until we leave. On the plus side, this trip is probably the first one where I actually feel pretty good about myself. Looking forward to buying some swimsuits, dresses & I'm even excited about the shorts I bought today...white and tangerine colored. Never would have thought I'd be wearing anything but normal jean colored shorts!

I don't think I mentioned this in my last post but I got a bit overzealous and deleted a bunch of pictures not realizing that they were linked to my blog. So you're going to see a lot of image errors & I'm sorry for that.  I'll try and fix it the best I can but  I think I'm just gonna leave  it  and fix the ones that are pretty simple.

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Hey, Remember Me?!

Well, is has been entirely too long since I have updated this. I owe my thanks to my good friend Jen that I'm here and typing again. I tried too hard to keep up with too many social media sites and eventually (like I feared) I just stopped updating all of them. Yet, I keep thinking about this blog. I have always enjoyed updating it & being able to put down how I'm feeling about my journey. You ready for some updates?

Well, first and foremost, I am officially divorced. I'm not going to go into great detail about it other than I am extremely happy and know for a fact I made the right decision.

I have been dating the most amazing man for the past 6 months. Trevor and I work together and have known each other over a year.  The connection I have with  Trevor is like nothing I  have ever experienced before. I never knew I could fall in love with someone so much and know deep, deep down that I want to spend the rest of my life with him.

Now, on to the weight loss topic (I've been avoiding it, can you tell??) I've been slacking. There, I said it. Don't worry though, the little voice in my head  reminds me on a pretty constant basis that I've gained 15lbs in the past 6 months. I'm not proud of it but I know it's all part of my journey. I mean, look how far I've come...I can't really dog on myself  for  15lbs. It's not 100...

I'm going to get to my goal. There has never been any doubt about that. I'm so close, I can't stop now. I can't let myself down like that, I wont....I refuse. My life has been so topsy turvy, I am still working on a normal routine. Things are so different in my life, it's just not as easy as it used to be. I also think  the struggles people experience in the beginning, I'm experiencing them now. It was just wayyyy too easy in the beginning.

So here I am, still working on my journey. I promise (once again) I'll be better about updating this!

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Run, Run As Fast As You Can...

Pretty happy with myself. I woke up to see that it was almost 9am & only 68 degrees outside (we've been having an unnaturally hot summer around here). The small voice in my head that I have been doing a stellar job of ignoring lately whispered "how can you NOT go running when it's almost 9am & still under 80 degrees outside?" I tried to ignore the voice, like I have been for awhile, but then realized it was right. I need to get out, go running & get out of this horrible funk.

I actually had the fear last night that I was slipping back into my old habits. I was just eating whatever I wanted, whenever & not caring. 

So I drug my butt out of bed, got dressed & went out on my normal route. The only difference was at 2 miles I realized that my body felt great, I didn't have my normal side ache, so why not push myself to see just how far I can make it? I took a left instead of a right, added a couple extra miles to my run & now, here I am.

I may not be a fast runner, I may not look good running and I may not be able to run far but at least I’m running.

I'm so close to hitting my goal, I think my struggle is that the weight isn't coming off as quickly as I would like it to. In the beginning, I changed my eating habits & worked out. I would cheat here & there but nothing that would make a huge impact. Now, I feel as if I eat one bad meal & then a few days later, eat another ...I'm completely thrown off.

So, here's my plan: (just as a side note: these types of plans are always easier to make after I've worked out. Had I tried to make this plan last night, either the plan would have never been created or I would have gone to bed with a plan...but still upset at myself) I'm going to print out a calendar. On said calender I'm going to mark each day that I work out. I'll also keep track of my cheat meals which I have concluded will consist of 3 meals a week. A cheat breakfast, lunch & dinner. They can't all be on the same day & they can't be back to back days (that one may be a little difficult but we'll see). I'm hoping by having this calendar up & visible it'll help get me back into my routine.

There's no denying it, I need to continue staying active & watching what I eat. I'll have to do this for the rest of my life. I'm perfectly ok with this. I am in love with being healthy & it boils down to this: being healthy has become a hobby for me.

Anyone else out there do monthly plans? Maybe even weekly plans? What works for you & what doesn't?

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Another 5k Under My Belt

I know I've been kind of lax about updating this sweet thing...I think I'm still working on finding my niche when it comes to the social media aspect of sharing my journey. I have this blog, I have a Facebook page & I have a Tumblr page. Sometimes it gets to be a bit much to keep up with but I always find myself coming back to this blog & wanting to continue to share my story.

First on the list of things to share, I have another 5k under my belt & it was my first race where people actually cared about their time. I made the mistake of lining up close to the front of the group. When the gun was fired I was elbowed out of the way -- literally. I ended up running my first mile in about 10 minutes which is super fast for me. This resulted in a pretty nasty side ache & I had to walk about 3 times through the whole race. I ended up finishing with a time of 36:03 which is only a minute-ish slower than my first 5k. This made me feel pretty good because had I not walked, I can only imagine what my time would have been. It was even more exciting because one of my bestest friends Tina & the Husband walked the same 5k! Tina is doing an awesome job on her own journey & I am so proud of her. Next 5k I do, we'll be running it together :]

From left to right: Tina, Me & the Husband!

I don't know what it is, but my weight loss is as a stall. I seem to be gaining & losing the same 7lbs for months. I'm not as strict with what I'm eating. I'm also not as strict with my exercise. But in the end, I'm not all that upset because I see how far I've come & I'm happy with myself. This past week was our 2nd wedding anniversary & we went to the same place that we had our engagement photo taken. Because I'm a girl, I wanted to get a picture in the same place. Once the picture was taken, I had to compare it to the previous picture from 2009. Here is the result:

Have to say, I'm pretty proud of myself. I am so happy with where I am & where I am going. I have the full support of my husband & all of my family. I even think I'm going to run a triathlon in the future. 

I know the weight will start coming off & I know my goal weight is in sight. 

I hope everyone out there is staying strong, working towards your goals & having fun! This journey can get difficult at times, but having fun is important.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

My First 5k

I know I should have posted this sooner but it seems like I've been nothing but go, go, go.

Day after my 26th birthday I ran my first 5k. The Color Run, also known as the happiest 5k on the planet & I couldn't agree more!

The race isn't timed & people are able to run, skip, jump or walk the whole thing. Even though it wasn't timed I wanted to time myself just to see how I would do. Unfortunately, because people didn't have to run, there were quite a few people that didn't. Unfortunately, those people that weren't running seemed to spread out across the whole path of the race which cause the people actually running to do a lot of zig-zagging. Final result?

Me, covered in color with a 35 minute 5k under my belt! That's right! Fastest 5k time I've ever had! Like most people who run their first 5k, they're immediately hooked & want to run more. I'm already making plans to run another race on the 4th of July. My husband & one of my good friends are even going to walk it.

Summer has started which means bike rides all weekend & now, kayaking. My husband scored a pretty nice kayak for only $100. Once we get some how-to classes under our belt we'll be taking the kayak out all the time. The hubby has already taken the kayak out once while I waited on the shore. He did a pretty good job, aside from him flipping over towards the end.

I can't wait for more bike rides with hubby & the kids & trips to the lake for more kayaking & swimming. I loooove summer.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Let the Countdown Begin

I have a few countdowns going, aka things I'm excited for. Like, my first 5k that is happening THIS SATURDAY. It's not timed & the whole race is meant to be fun which is probably why it was so easy for me to sign up for it on a whim. I looked at my husband yesterday when I got my email about picking up my race packet & I just couldn't believe, I'm actually running a 5k. The girl, who a year ago, weighed over 200lbs & swore she'd never run for fun. Ever.

I'm also counting down to summer. My stepson gets out of school this Thursday & my stepdaughter gets out in the beginning of June. I'm sure they're sick of school & ready to take a break but I'm ready for some fun! We're a completely different family now. We enjoy going out & being active together, just makes me that much more excited for what the summer is going to bring us.

Counting down the days until my birthday. Turning the big 'ol 26 on Friday. I'm surrounded by people that are older than me so I don't really have the chance to be depressed about my age & frankly I don't think I ever will be. I have this whole new outlook on life that I didn't have a year ago so getting older doesn't seem all that daunting because I'm taking steps to make sure I am as healthy as I can be as I get older.

So many things to be excited about, I almost can't contain myself!

I feel like I have a better handle on my eating habits as of late. There are days that I do splurge but it's not to the point that those moments turn into horrible habits I have to eventually break myself of. I knew the week leading up to my race, I would going to stay on top of my good habits because I didn't want anything to get in the way of my first 5k.

Yesterday was amazing. I went for a run after having a few days of rest from any kind of work out. I ended up running a little over 4 miles with only a 5 minute warm up walk..the rest was running. I don't know how but one day I just started to run on the treadmill & decided to see how long I could go. 15 minutes turned into 30, which turned into 40 & all of the sudden I'm running 5ks like it's no big deal! I love when I amaze myself.

I hope you all are still going strong towards all your goals, no matter what they are. Remember, I'm here if you ever have any questions or are just curious about how I got to where I am. I'm an open book.

Until next time remember,

Tuesday, May 15, 2012


I have discovered that I freaking LOVE running. So why does my body decide to hate me so much when I do it?

Yesterday, ran a little over 40 minutes straight outside. Had my regular side ache that I spent the first 25 minutes dealing with. Then I could feel blisters forming on my feet (that's because of my spiffy new shoes). All in all, it was a good run. I felt good about it afterwards & was looking forward to my run today.

Today, my body had other plans. The second I started my warm-up walk, I started to feel that nasty side ache. I stretch, I pay attention to my breathing & I massage my side. Hoping I can kick it before I start my actual run. Oh no, no, no. The pain increases as I pick up my pace. Each step is another painful stab (meanwhile I can hear a menacing laugh as my body internally stabs my side over & over). I try everything to make it go away & it just gets worse. Along with this pain, my blisters have popped & are screaming with each step as well.

The blisters will go away. I know this. Yet, the side ache that appears each time I run doesn't seem to want to go away as easily as a blister. I plan on doing some more research to see what the "key" is to keeping that ache at bay because cutting my run short today was not what I wanted but I'm pretty sure my body will thank me for it later.

I don't want this post to be me just whining & whining. Because, well, whining is just unattractive. So here's my last grip towards myself: I can't seem to eat well consistenly. I started this journey & everything was simple. Read the calories, calculate the calories & end the day under my limit. Now, all I want to do is eat junk. It's not because I've deprived myself. I haven't since the moment I've started this journey. If I wanted some sort of treat, I'd have it. But now I catch myself just mindlessly eating junk. Then, later on I'm upset with myself because I know it was a bad choice. I've moved the junk food to a cabinet that I rarely go into. hoping that it will keep me from eating it. So, today, I'll do my best to stay on track. One step at a time, I'll find my groove again because I have definitely lost some of it.

A week from this Saturday is The Color Run. I'd like to have as few complications as possible so I can ENJOY the run!

On a happier note, when you get the chance head on over here & check out loads of inspirational stories & blogs to follow! ....You might even see a familiar face pop up on the blog sometime this week!

Until then...